分手了

是的我跟他分手了。我真的不敢相信这个事情会发生。11个月的感情就到这里结束了。11个月的感情竟然能说不爱就不爱了。

我现在该怎么办呢？

忘记他？我该怎么忘记呢？我该从那里开始忘记呢？

不爱他？我该怎么失去我对他的感情呢？我能做到吗？

我蔡欣洳失恋了！我失恋了！我又回到原本的我了。

原本的我？能吗？

我真的真的不敢相信我们就这样结束了。虽然很不甘心。虽然还是放不下对他的感情。可是我唯一能做的就是尽快的忘记他。

我想因该需要几个月吧？

我不怪他。这是我自己要的。你们不要讨厌他生气他。OK？

是我要知道他的答案的。现在知道了就必须面对而不是躲起来。

我始终还是失败了。我还是留不住他的心。受了这么多的委屈也留不住他。觉得我自己好失败哦。

这就是爱情。爱情很可怕。 甜蜜的时候就很幸福可是幸福总是不留久。它让你知道了幸福是什么味道后就走人。你好坏哦。 你让痛苦来找我们。你怎么可以这样呢？你告诉我啊！你怎么能这样对我呢？！ 我可是无辜的！！！

接受事实吧。说多也没用。说多他也不会回来我的身边。就当这是我人生中的一个错误吧。从那里跌倒就得从那里爬起来。相信我能做到！有你们这样的陪着我， 相信很快就能看到新的我！

可是我拜托你们不要在我失恋的时候来叫我跟你们在一起。我还需要很多的时间。我不知道我这个伤及时才会复原。所以。。。 就这样

很好笑的是昨天又三个男生跟我聊天

第一个男生：

我：我跟男朋友分手了=（
XX：不要伤心。那我问你啊~
我：什么是？
XX：那你想我会有机会吗？

*真的是把我给笑死了！有必要那么快吗？*

我：你真是的我才刚失恋你跟我说这些你是不是欠打啊？
XX：没有啦~问而以嘛哪里知道你等下就被人拿了怎么办？

*还真的是给他气到！*

第二个男生
我：=( 我刚刚跟男朋友分手了
XXX：不要伤心。你还有我。不管发生什么事我都不会离开的我会永远陪着你。
我：谢谢。我想我因该需要很长的日子才能恢复吧？
XXX：没关系我会陪着你度过这些日子。我会好好照顾你。你不值得为那位男生来伤心。你是因该要有跟好的人来爱你照顾你。
我：你真的对我好好哦！可是我真的不想伤害你。
XXX：请你别说多我知道你不想伤害我。可是我们都猜不到下一站会发生什么对吧？
我：那如果我还是无法爱上你了?
XXX: 我还是会等你不管你到老还是不爱我还是等。 （能相信才怪=X）

* 他对我真的很好不管我说什么他就是不会放弃我，我真的不想伤害他T.T我该怎么办？*

第三个男生
me: hey...haihhh so sad!
xxxx:why?
me: just broke up with bf ='(
xxxx: O.O can tell me what happen?
*telling the story*
xxxx: wow! he so crazy man~
me:why?
xxxx: dontknow just feel that he is weird ><
me: oww...
*chat chat chat*
xxxx: between tomorrow i want to ask you something~ personal thing
me: O.O?about what? related to?
xxxx:related to heart

*感觉他好想喜欢我哦还是要作弄我？哈哈 我也不知道等下就知道了*

感觉好像全部都在城这个机会来对我好。不是说他们平常对我不好啦~ 也不知道该怎么说

对了还有一件事~真的被他给气到！

me: eh!why you so scare me want!
xxxxx: im not scare you i scare your bf
me: haih~ me and him =(
xxxxx: you two broke up already?
me: havent but i think soon? =(
xxxxx: nahh wait you two broke up liao then tell me.

*hahahahaha funny weh him...really kena he kek dao=.=" now i can tell him we broke up liao lol*

Still got another thing.. That day video call with brother
brother: so how you and your bf now?
me:haihh sad la we fight =(
brother：ask him go die la! you come back singapore la..here many boys ah!i can intro to you. Go break with him la~
me: weii~ *angry angry*

*haha guess now i am so goin back to singapore then find a relationship ler.i want to faster leave this sad place! 1 more year and i will be leaving~ SINGAPORE!WAIT FOR ME!*

I really thought that me and him will be together forever~ i thought that we could go to high school together.
Do you know how happy m i when you told me that your mum ask you want to go singapore . I everyday thinking about it. And now i guessed i just have to forget it because it wont happen anymore.

Anyway im not there with you already so please take care of yourself. Dont always so late sleep. Please drink more water and excercise more. Well i gueesed i dont have to say" hope you will be fine" As i think you now should be happy and i think you have just released a big stone on ur heart. No more stress for you so dont worry about it. Dont worry about me too. I can handle it =)

26th october 2009- 30th september 2010. * I will remember our sweet memory and forget the sad thing*
but i hope you will forget everything about me and you. So when you hava a new girlfriend and something similar happen between you and her you wont think of me . And you wont felt sorry for doing this to me. =)

Bye bye~ </3