Confession

OK! To let my blog more alive i need to do something on it.
What should i do?
For the truth- i dont know.

My blog is so so so boring so is my life. I got nothing to blog about. Totally nothing. Unless you're really a pervert who want to know what i did everyday at school what i talked with my friends and so on. haha ok kiding.

So i got no pictures to show you guys too. sorry. 

Just so you know. This is my everyday routine:

 Wake up

Go to school

Talk craps 

Laugh like i never laugh before(mostly everyday -.-)

Listen to teacher.

After school.

Went home.

Go studio if needed.

Go tuition if there is tuition on that day.

Go home.

Sleep.

Ta DA! boring!

Talking about studio i really love the dance we going to perform on 21st. I must practice until i can memorised all the move even when i was talking with someone and i still can continue the dance.

ok dont get what i mean?

Actually i dont too.

I got one problem when im on stage, when im performing.

What's the problem?

I DONT KNOW WHERE TO LOOK AT!!!!

yes i know its a small problem you can simply just look at anywhere or the floor.

But who want to watch a dancer looking at the floor from the start til the end?

I found my weakness.

I know why i always make mistake on stage.

Its because i dont know where to look at.

When i was thinking " ok where should i look at then all my focus was on that AND THEN i forgot the next move -.-.

Just like what it happened on centre point.

I get nervous easily like super easily. and at the same time i feel shy too. ok i know there is nothing to let me feel shy. But i dont know i just feel shy easily esh! I can dance like a crazy girl at home or at studio (if i know everyone there very well la) but when on actual day of performance. When you're on stage thousands hundreds of eyes looking at you. And you got no direction where or who to look at. I been practicing at home. And i did it well (ofcuz la because i was alone ma -.-)

So hope i can do it!

To be honest normally when i perform i either look at the atap(roof?><) or just looking at floor but not people.

I just feel so .. dont know how to describe the feeling, if i look at people and dance.

I AM SO FREAKING WEIRD MY GOD!!!

AND I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING SO SHY!!! (FYI- I am not shy if i know you la hehe ^^ and im a very noisy annoying girl)

Actually there are few picutures i took this past few days but im just so lazy to put in to my laptop.

AND

i dont know what is happen on earth!

My phone keep dropping!

Like everyday?

This morning i woke up and i took my phone and accidentally i just pull the charger wire then piak!my phone drop.

And everytime i put my phone on my computer table the put keyboard there then i got no idea why when i stand up the phone will drop.

And when i was in car i put my phone on my lap(isit lap? da tui there) then when my dad u turn or turn *swing* drop to the corner.

ASTAGA!my phone is going to dead soon! but CHOIII!!!! hope nothing gonna happen to you my dear.

p/s:好想知道喜欢一个人的感觉是怎么样的。

Today our chinese teacher talked about her past love story but not fully counted as love also la.

That she is really dumb about love. and told us the feeling she got toward a boy. And what happen to her when the boy she like talk to her.

And this remind me of something.

I only got this kind of feeling ONCE in my liFE! Feel so SAD!

Which is on 2005 i got a crush. And im like super duper like him! And i remembered got one time he walked toward me and smiled at me and was going to say something to me.

AT THE MOMENT!

my heart beat like OMG FAST DAO~

alto he just want to say ask other people to throw the rubbish not him -.-

hahaha. and i actually like him for 2 years? lol

He so freaking handsome la (as in now for me) lol

Hope no one know who is it hahahah except my bestie ><

Haih~ Really miss those moment. My heart is like dead already.

Killed by someone.

Hate myself for letting you got the chance to kill it.

And now i got no one to blame but myself.

Its like.

Why there is no guy who actually caught my attention?

(not mean i very !@#$#@! la)

Just that i dont know why. i dont find guy attractive o.o
AND not that im a LESBO ah! haha
i still love guy like KIM JONG HYUN!

 

OR!

 

Because im still afraid of love? involving in love life?

 

ah bla~ dont know la haha..

 

Just hope one day i can find my mr.right. and not guy for experience for fun. =/