好的开始

Yesterday was a good day!!! because i dint drop a tear! =D so yeaa i think its a good beginning!!! Yes, i still think of you but that no longer make me feel like crying anymore. Life goes on. I thought that i could handle it.

This morning my friend cried =( she miss her bf. i mean ex bf =/...They been broke up for 2 months already. And she still miss him love him. I was afraid im going to be like her too. Few months later still cry because of him? And he dont even know that? How silly could that be? But this is love.

HEY i know you read my blog =p so cheer yea?hugs <3 WE CAN MAKE IT! I MEAN WE THREE! AS WE ALL MET THE SAME THINGS!!! GIRLS ALWAYS THE STRONGEST OKAY? =D

And until today i dint cry too =) okay i did in class but it just almost so yeaa dint count eh?

Few minutes ago...i went to his profile. i know i shouldnt go to his profile if i want to forget him but i already used to it. And i got no idea why everytimes when i went to see someone picture and the photo memory for sure got him! and and if i go to my friend profile - scroll down see mutual friends he always at there too! I GOT NO IDEA WHY!!! how come ah? not just one or two friends its like any of my friends also like this. So my mouse just automatically went to his name there and *click* ...

Oh yeaa few minutes ago i went to his profile again and i saw his display picture. Although its nothing but i got no idea why i cry. And i see his pictures and this make me burst into tears. =/

I miss him. and i know i cant do anything.All these has become a memory, a history, a past.There is no way for me to pull him back to me. I know we cant be like what we used to be anymore. I know. But i dont know why too there is a feeling telling me this is not the truth and until now i still cant believe this is actually happening to me. I still call his name before i sleep i still think of him everytime when i wake up and i still keep his picture =(. I still think that he is belongs to me. But i know HE IS SO NOT MINE ANYMORE!!! I wanted to delete all of our pictures in my phone but i just cant do it. I dont want to erase him from my mind. I still want to be with him. Well, ofcourse i know it is impossible.

What can i do?

My friends told me that dont keep telling myself i want to forget him because this will make me miss him more.Maybe this is truth. Maybe i just know how to say it out but i know i cant even do it. It been 6days we broke up. Time pass really fast.

I told myself. If i cant forget you then why dont i just dont forget? I will put all of our memory-bad memory,sweet memory,funny memory,stupid memory and happy memory all put in the bottom of my heart. First to remind me that we used to be very happy when i with you. Second to remind me not to make the same mistakes for twice =)